Rach is right, these do get harder. I want, I don't want..... want, desire.... need.... lump them all in a pile.
Heavy sigh, deep breath.... hit it...
1. I got this in my head form Rachel pointing out about people no longer writing letters. I'm with her on that one. I still write letters. Want? I want people to pick up the phone and call. Don't e mail me, message me, whatever me. I don't check my e mail all the time, and I don't like to e mail. I don't live on my cell phone or my computer.... I have a life. Call me, make some human contact, hear a voice. If you want to be heard. If not, sit and stare at the computer screen. Enough said.
2. Life. I want to continue on the path that Papa has put me on, the continue to grow, listen, be quiet, pay attention, love, and be the foolish the child he created me to be.
3. I want to go back to school and I also want to go back to teach. Right now I sub for a friend. It works. I had planned to go back this term. Now I am shooting for next term. I feel like by then my health will allow me to give my full attention and energy to it. And to do both. It's going to require some strategy here juggling, but will see what happens. Teaching again is a must for me... it's just another spiritual channel for me.
4. I want to stop saying I am tired. :) And I will.... I don't know if I mentioned it but my count came up one whole point. That's HUGE!! Huge! So Dr Smellgood and I are totally psyched over that.
5. I want to go back to Israel for a couple months to see my friends. The cultural immersion is incredible.
6. I want the people I love to stop getting cancer. I do the whole "death and dying" thing pretty well. Makes me an asset in many situations. But honestly, I'm sick of people dying. I'm sick of people I love more than my own life going through this shit.
7. I want my life back. (see #4) I want to sit at the bar with Dave again and drink coffee and talk about nonsense. I want.....
I want.... there's a huge difference between wanting and needing. In my eyes. Needs... I have a few absolutes. Wanting.... I don't know. One thing I didn't mention that just hit my radar too, is that I want to be a little more spontaneous. I am to an extent. And I am getting better at it.... but I need (and want) that, if only for myself.
Done. I hope next week is something easier, like infinite numbers or the human genome project.
5 comments:
This should not be so hard, should it. Let me know if you need help with that genome thingy. haha!
I love your list and I hope you get what you want and need. I can't do the phone thing, though. Just can't. Not a phone user, me. But I'll be glad to write a letter! haha!
No phone. I have been known to miss things I need or would enjoy because a phone call is involved. I was born for the Internet. I think this is harder than I thought it would be too. When Mindy suggested it, it seemed easy compared to academic papers. Hey--where is Mindy? My authentication word is "penmail.".
You guys are so funny... and no phone with you two is fine, but my family and close friends..... no excuses. My cousin facebooked me to tell me my nephews girlfriend was killed that morning. I never look at the computer in the morning, unless I am checking the tide. She could have called. That's the kind of stuff I mean.
Funny, last night I thought of something else I want, now I can't remember. I suppose I didn't want it that bad.
And.... yeah where the heck is Mindy? She's holed up in that craft room of hers.
Yay for #4 and I'm with you on #6 for sure.
I hope you get everything you want AND need. Though not in a twisted humor kind of way, which is what happens to me with the "be careful what you ask for" bidness.
XXXOOO
I want you to get your life back too.
I hate the phone. I have gotten to where I do not care to talk on it. I spend so much time on it during the day at work. It rings constantly.
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