Self Pacification

I needed this.........

Unplug

This week I have have three techno gadgets in my house crap out on me, for no apparent reason other than the planets are out of alignment. So after quite a bit on tinkering and reading manuals,
I did what I always seem to do and that is hit the reset button, then unplug. Works every time.
Good life lesson in there; when all else fails just hit the button and unplug.

Waiting

Or maybe more like idling in neutral. This is, or has the potential to be a strange week for me.
Tomorrow is the 8 year anniversary of the death of my Dad and being a Daddy's girl that's a huge thing. Friday is the 6 year anniversary of a much beloved friend, who died after a way more than valiant fight with ovarian cancer. Wedged in between these is Thursday and I will be on "duty" that day. My dearly departed's best friend is having a tumor removed from his kidney so I'm on the night shift his first night post op. We talked last night. He's glad I will be there. I am glad I will be there. I am inextricably woven with his family. They are "my family." They are the ones who can walk in and camp and know where everything is. Same goes when I go to their house. And where am I going with this? I'm reading Jules recount of her D Day as she calls it. Her story and walk into faith touch me deeply. And it is the Lenten season which is my favorite time of year.
The ash reminds me that we are just that. Ash. During Lent I become profoundly introverted and introspective. Yes, even though I'm all ga-ga over the new U2 CD! I still allow myself to snap! But the whole picture of the week is not lost on me, I still see him sitting at my husband's beside at 6 a.m. and the whole wave just rolls back and washes over me. Like a holy bath the water is cleansing, not overpowering. And for me, I will sit in peace and wait this through because I know that this is what I am always called to do.

Perspective

Couple of days ago I realized I "see" things better when I take a photo of it and load it on computer and view. Basically I am referring to my art projects I work on. I had a serious stall on this one project I have been working on and should have submitted several months ago. Yes, that's right. Months ago. I have been slowly piddling with it the past few weeks, entertaining myself with other things in the meantime. Long story short, I long ago decided that said piece "just wasn't speaking to me" you know all this arty stuff is personal and has to talk to you. It's a form of self expression.
So, yesterday I decide to trash project and start over, after once again photographing and trying to diagnose what was wrong with it. My brain isn't wired correctly, that's a given. I lack depth perception and have problems with spatial relationships. I imagine in my lack, that by duplicating the image and viewing it secondarily, I gain a different perspective. It works for me. Today I stripped project down to base and started to redo, thoughtlessly lost in the process (and jamming to Dave Matthews) and am half done and much happier. Revisiting the perspective problem and question.....what else do we look at from a distance or through a secondary viewer, so that we can really "see" what we need to see? I'll be working on that one for a while.

Random

Rather than spending our days trying to get it right, shouldn't we be just simply trying to get it?

background change

I had to fool with things.......if you find it too distracting, yell out and I'll pick something else. My logic was if I was looking at it, I'd want to see something nice. Having said that...is this background going to class with my pictures of Bono that I post? Another problem to deal with........

and so it goes....

I've already made my first error and it's been all of what? Maybe 30 seconds at this. Egad! May take some getting used to. And a little help!!